#3 wow...

Here it is another Sunday. Wow what a week. I am not doing well in my new job. Its one thing right after another. I'm just not able to get things out fast enough. This is caused a huge hit to my self esteem...however I am learning its not just me...it really is the job. I had a review on Friday and was told I needed to pull my caseload together in the next 30 days or they would reduce my pay...huh is that even possible in state service...talk about a tailspin...I spent a moment or 3 in the restroom to have a good cry.  This is birthday month...the greatest day of the year is this month....my Birthday! Wahoo and I will be 40. Planing a big party and everything...and yet at 40..i suck at my job. I have never ever sucked at my job let alone ever gotten a bad review. Got home and had a very supportive husband...then went out to the property and did mass amounts of yard work in prep for my 40th birthday HoeDown...I have stress about going to work but was reminded this weekend by an amazing friend to keep things in perspective...I have a job a decent paying one with benefits. I have a caring family and friends. I have an interview with another state agency in a week...this job was  a reminder what I need to not do. And how to take care of me. Sucks but that's how it is.  Ok that's all folks....enjoy your week.