I
started painting about 2 or so years ago, I am not the greatest artist but I
enjoy it. It ceases the constant chatter in my head and I get lost when
mixing the colors. The only other time in my life the chatter ceases, is
when I read…Life long bookworm that’s me...
I digress…
So
what I do is look at pictures and kinda know who the picture needs to be
painted for. I paint small… its my favorite, Altoid boxes, little
canvases…small. Its kinda like they speak to me. LOL
Anyway…I
had a friend, who one day said to me, “I cant wait to see which picture
resonates with you, which one you feel speaks to you.” That was a long while
ago. I have been looking, thought I had one (NEVER got around to painting
it), and then a couple of weeks ago saw this one:
Funny
how thoughts come about, I saw this picture and think “oh this is me/mine” then
forward to the friend who says “Wow, little red riding hood, a victim of
deception” She is 100% correct, however that is so not how I saw it at all….
I
know it's red riding hood but that's not how I my soul see it...its like my
brain say red riding hood but my heart says....so much darkness… bring love and
light...and even when u come up against total darkness you keep moving in love.
I'm sad at times but not hateful and bitter...I love people and am able to love
unconditionally and without judgment…I am able to love everyone else but
myself.
In
the picture the darkness surrounds the girl in red. I feel that it represents
life, and the wolf is society/people/souls; not that it is always
horrible but that when it is, the girl in red is there accepting you, reaching
out and bringing you happiness (bright color) and love. UNCONDITIONALLY.
The snow is the purity...simplicity of it all. Plus you know…it’s a dog
thing the wolf and all...I currently
have 5 dogs
This
year my goal was to stop shopping, eat less, no binging, lose weight, exercise
more, be happy, don’t mope….blah blah blah…ect… Then it came to me…It was
one of those moments that just lights up in your head all of a sudden… LOVE
YOU!!!! JUST LOVE YOU!!!!
I
realized after seeing this picture my goal this year is to start loving myself
like I love everyone else. Once I love me…all the other “GOALS” I set for
myself will just fall into place. Way easier said then done but totally
doable one small step, day, second at a time.
So
here I am realizing I want to write and the best way to do that, is this here
blog. So again I am here, posting and sharing. I thought OMGOSH I
need to outline and figure out what direction I want to take with this
blog…Will it be about my dieting, my happiness, my miseries…WHAT? UGH
there goes that head of mine… chatter chatter chatter…. Another friend
says…”ummm just write how you are feeling.”
Simple,
keep it simple…insert stupid but then back track delete…because this is the
year I love me, not call me names J
And yes I will be copying the above photo and painting it for myself…..SOON
