OK trying this again to see if it helps. This was the worst week ever...one thing right after another...not to mention I'm trying yet again to not binge eat...compulsively eat...be gluten free and sugar free...be happy and exercise....
All I can say is I have been one super cranky chicka. I have not binged..nor added gluten...and have done good with the sugar...still overeating a bit at meals... but its quite a bit better then last week...so baby steps. Which I think suck so bad. As I'm the type of person who wants everything NOW.
Now just isn't happening and since I look in the mirror and hate me...and wonder WTF...how on earth did I gain all the weight back...I wanna just sit in a corner...instead I keep trying...trying to laugh when I want to cry...trying to stay moving when I want to sit...trying to eat healthy when I'm sure ice cream is a cure all...trying to be perfect...
I have no idea what direction I wanna take my blog right now...for now I will just try to write something once a week.
Happy thoughts: I have 3 dogs and 4 chickens and am pretty sure I need a miniature donkey....
Today I had one of my ladies (chicken) grab food out of my fingers. And my dogs each came in while I was reading...for their very own snuggle time! Perfect!
Enjoy you week and remember to laugh...lots...
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Sunday, April 19, 2015
some messed up emotions
Man is life ever crazy...I totally forgot sorta about my blog. Life has been a spiral downward for so long. I have gained back most of the weight I lost. Can't stop eating nor can I get by butt to OA meetings. Marriage is so hard. I have had 2 new jobs...both of which I totally suck at which totally messes with my head. Depression has been my BFF....and yet I keep putting one step in front of the other...and keep trying. And keep smiling and loving. One day it will be Ok...I am always Ok
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