Deep Breathe

Today is one of those days that started out with drama...I think it may end well but in the meantime I am tired and confused. I have so much to do yet am just sitting here staring at the computer screen. So I figured I might as well write in my blog. I did take 3 quizzes for my online history class. I only missed 2 questions out of all 3 quizzes and I got 10 out of 10 on my thesis and discussion questions. This is so good...but my crazy head wonders if she (the teacher) was just giving us all a break and things will just get harder and harder....I have to be at my daughters school at 2:13. The teacher wants to see my daughter because she has missed a week of school due to sickness. I am actually not ok with this as my daughter has after school commitments. I told the teacher this and offered to go in my daughters place and she told me no that she had to see Isabella. This really bothers me even when I told the teacher no she still insisted. I have decided since she gives my daughter so much anxiety I do not want her alone with her after school. The teacher does not know I am showing up. But I told my daughter I was. At the end of the day this is my kid and I need to protect her in anyway needed. She is a good kid and I know will be a bit behind due to being out for illness but other then that she will be fine. I feel like the teacher is picking on her and it really upsets me. The teacher almost had me in tears this morning. A friend said I really need to take lessons in standing up for myself. She said in the years she has known me I tend to back down....Life is so strange....

Also I have come to the realization that I will be alone on valentines...and its because of me....because I would at the end of the day prefer it. who knew....I guess God knew. I could make arrangements with a couple of men but its so much work. I guess at the end of it all I am not willing to be bothered. How funny is that. I always thought I was alone because I was ugly and fat. Nope its because I am weird and say no to everyone. LOL...Life is so strange....

Deep Breathe...tomorrow is another day and I am fine, my daughter is beautiful and God loves us!