Goals...Perspective...ME

I started painting about 2 or so years ago, I am not the greatest artist but I enjoy it.  It ceases the constant chatter in my head and I get lost when mixing the colors.  The only other time in my life the chatter ceases, is when I read…Life long bookworm that’s me... I digress… 
 

So what I do is look at pictures and kinda know who the picture needs to be painted for.  I paint small… its my favorite, Altoid boxes, little canvases…small.  Its kinda like they speak to me.  LOL  
 

Anyway…I had a friend, who one day said to me, “I cant wait to see which picture resonates with you, which one you feel speaks to you.” That was a long while ago.  I have been looking, thought I had one (NEVER got around to painting it), and then a couple of weeks ago saw this one: 

 

 

 

Funny how thoughts come about, I saw this picture and think “oh this is me/mine” then forward to the friend who says “Wow, little red riding hood, a victim of deception” She is 100% correct, however that is so not how I saw it at all….
 

I know it's red riding hood but that's not how I my soul see it...its like my brain say red riding hood but my heart says....so much darkness… bring love and light...and even when u come up against total darkness you keep moving in love. I'm sad at times but not hateful and bitter...I love people and am able to love unconditionally and without judgment…I am able to love everyone else but myself.  
 

In the picture the darkness surrounds the girl in red. I feel that it represents life, and the wolf is society/people/souls;  not that it is always horrible but that when it is, the girl in red is there accepting you, reaching out and bringing you happiness (bright color) and love. UNCONDITIONALLY.  The snow is the purity...simplicity of it all.  Plus you know…it’s a dog thing the wolf and all...I currently have 5 dogs
 

This year my goal was to stop shopping, eat less, no binging, lose weight, exercise more, be happy, don’t mope….blah blah blah…ect…  Then it came to me…It was one of those moments that just lights up in your head all of a sudden… LOVE YOU!!!!    JUST LOVE YOU!!!!
 

I realized after seeing this picture my goal this year is to start loving myself like I love everyone else.  Once I love me…all the other “GOALS” I set for myself will just fall into place.  Way easier said then done but totally doable one small step, day, second at a time. 
 

So here I am realizing I want to write and the best way to do that, is this here blog.  So again I am here, posting and sharing.  I thought OMGOSH I need to outline and figure out what direction I want to take with this blog…Will it be about my dieting, my happiness, my miseries…WHAT?  UGH there goes that head of mine… chatter chatter chatter…. Another friend says…”ummm just write how you are feeling.”
 

Simple, keep it simple…insert stupid but then back track delete…because this is the year I love me, not call me names J   And yes I will be copying the above photo and painting it for myself…..SOON